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Tuesday, July 26, 2016
Day 3 of eating plan.  Woo hoo!  And I dropped a lot of weight, so I'm almost back to where I was pre binge.  I'm curious what my weight will be if I continue on this plan for a long time.  Hubby thinks I'll be back to my weight of early/mid 20s, before my metabolism kicked in.  It's about 5-7lb lighter than before i had kiddos (unless I was crazy dieting).  We will see.  I'm sure.  I will do this.  If it stays where I am today, that's ok too, though.  I like where I am today.

I almost missed my writing today.  It's a couple hours later than I normally blog because well.... life.  Kiddos wanted breakfast, then puzzle, then diaper changes, skype with Grandma and before I know it it's almost time to leave for the library.   I can tell L needs another diaper change, but she doesn't seem to mind and I know how important this is.  Last time I skipped my readings and blog, I had a horrendous day and was not my kind self.

My quote for today is quite long:

I'm learning to identify illusions that make my life unmanageable. For example, I wanted to stop controlling people and situations, but the harder I tried, the more I felt as if I were knocking my head against a wall. Then someone mentioned that I couldn't give up something I didn't have. Perhaps I could try giving up the illusion of control. Once I saw that my attempts to exercise power were based on illusions, it was easier to let go and let God.
Another illusion is that I have a big hole inside and I must fill it with something from outside myself. Compulsively shopping, obsessing about relationships, trying to fix everyone else's problems -- these are some of the ways I've tried to fill this hole. Yet the problem is spiritual emptiness and must be filled from within. It wasn't until I saw through the illusion that I was deficient and needed to look outside myself that I began to heal.
Today's Reminder
Today, if I hear myself thinking that I am not good enough or that I need something outside myself to make me whole. I'll know that I am listening to illusions. Today I can call an Al-Anon friend and come back to reality.
". . . human beings, by changing the inner attitudes of their minds, can change the outer aspects of their lives." William James

Slogans: Let go and let God, One Day at a Time

1) L is trying to walk and waving hi and bye and trying to roar for bear sounds (so grateful!)
2) Grateful for insurance
3) Grateful for freedom in America
4) Grateful for a healthy world that I can go outside and enjoy
5) Grateful for headache medication that actually works for me!!


  1. This quote is the hardest for me. It definitely is the center of my addiction. Thank you for being someone I can reach out too!